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		document.write('<div style="font-size: 1.1em; margin-bottom: 5px;"><a href="javascript:void(0)" onclick="if(document.getElementById(\'b_12786\').style.display == \'none\'){document.getElementById(\'b_12786\').style.display=\'block\';}else{document.getElementById(\'b_12786\').style.display=\'none\';}if(this.style.background.search(\'https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif\') != -1){this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}else{this.style.background = \'url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/min_dark_blue.gif)\'; this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';}" onmouseover="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 12px\';" onmouseout="this.style.backgroundPosition = \'0px 0px\';" style="margin: 5px 3px 0 3px; float: left; background-image: url(https://www.psychforums.com/styles/prosilver/theme/images/blog/max_dark_blue.gif); background-position: 0px, 0px; width: 12px; height: 12px;" /><a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Mental Health/new_here...relationshipmental_health_question._c-4_u-467380_b-12786.html">New here...relationship/mental health question.</a></div><div id="b_12786" style="display: none; padding: 5px 5px 2px 15px; font-size: 0.9em; border-bottom: 1px dotted #DDDDDD;">I&#039;m new here. So I&#039;m sorry I wasn&#039;t quite sure where to post this. <br />I&#039;m really emotionally exhuasted. I had a severe emotional outburst at my sister and dad over Mother&#039;s Day weekend, and now my partner is telling me I&#039;m responsible for where they are at in their own head.<br />   As far as my partner goes, let me explain - <br />       October of last year, I ######6 broke. I was in a place where I lost friendships, I didn&#039;t know what was real anymore, and I was so tapped out that I was convinced that I was being emotionally manipulated/abused by my partner, but I loved her and couldn&#039;t bear to leave her. I told her I desperately needed some space, and after three years of living with one another, we are now seven months into living apart. It was a really traumatic experience, telling her I needed to live on my own for awhile, and we fought and screamed and cried at one another. I can&#039;t even begin to write here how hard it was on both of us. My partner didn&#039;t want to, and she told me that living apart was going to ruin her mental health. But I had to stick to my guns. I had to. I just had to. I wasn&#039;t myself, I wasn&#039;t pursuing my career and I wasn&#039;t really living. My relationship with my family ( who, despite my intro to this post, I am very close with) was strained and to a boiling point.<br />   Cut to now, like I said, seven months apart - We still see each other every week. We have a dog that we both adore and I take him every weekend. We have bumps in the road, but everything seems to be going okay. I just landed a great job, I am slowly processing my trauma and coming to terms with my mental instabilities - I don&#039;t have an official diagnosis, but I am working really hard to find a therapist ( something that is now stalled by the change in employer). But she still blames me. She blows up on me randomly, waits until the last straw breaks the camels back and always ends up saying/texting : &quot;I didn&#039;t want to be in this position/mindstate!&quot; //  &quot;I ######6 hate this and you did this!&quot; // &quot;I told you this is where I would end up&quot;.<br />  This crushes me. I go from feeling like she supports me in my struggle with my mental health, and then she does this. She blames me for how she feels now that she lives alone. She blew up on me today because I was supposed to come see her after work, but traffic was so bad that it would have taken me over two hours to get to her. So she told me to go home. I was trying to find an alternate route but just couldnt. She lost her $#%^ and basically told me that she always gets the short end of the stick and telling me that she isn&#039;t okay isn&#039;t going to solve everything.<br />She knows im in an emotionally fragile place right now, and I just can&#039;t take being held responsible for everyone else&#039;s feelings. I want to have my own feelings. I want to be able to stay home by myself if I need to. I need to not be worried about her. I love her and I want to be there for her, but I&#039;m so exhuasted. I&#039;m crying right now typing this. <br />I feel buried under a hill of stress and trauma and I feel like I can&#039;t get out.<br />                       &quot;</div>');
		
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She&#039;s just over a year old and I love her. If anything happened to her I would be distraught. To give her up would be horrible, and if it weren&#039;t for my partner, who&#039;s family she came from, I think I would.<br /><br />We&#039;re both young adults and don&#039;t have much motivation outside of work to do things like take the dog out. I know that&#039;s unhealthy, he knows it too. But it&#039;s a cycle. We feed, play with her and have her groomed just as we should. But she doesn&#039;t get out often and doesn&#039;t get to see much of the house either. She stays in the living room and excitedly follows us to the kitchen each time we top up her food or water. This is entirely because the house isn&#039;t fully decorated, so we&#039;re not fully organised. She would hoover up anything she possibly could with those sharp little teeth. To all the owners that have pets that&#039;re fussy about what they eat? Lucky you! My pup likes to chew the wall and the fireplace. She has also eaten chunks of the carpet and wood around the door, a sushi rolling mat, a pencil and a few other things that I&#039;m surprised didn&#039;t make her ill. I know that this is because of her not being out of the room/house, I&#039;m just giving a full background.<br /><br />She barely needed any potty training and knows exactly what to do on her pads, but will frequently pee or poop on the floor when there are clean pads down. Sometimes it&#039;s out of excitement, and while I find it endearing, I find it far more annoying. There are times when for the two minutes I leave the room, she will pee somewhere on the carpet or couch. She originally didn&#039;t like being watched while going but that doesn&#039;t seem to be the issue anymore. <br /><br /><br />She is very smart and will listen to my commands, when she wants to. She understands come, get down, her name, enough, good girl, thank you, time for bed etc. When she is in trouble, for example when she has peed in the wrong place, chewed something etc I will tell her bad girl and smack her nose or bum, the same as my partner does. Sometimes if she is particularly unruly we will put her in her cage, but we try not to make that distressing because sometimes we use it for when people come in etc and we don&#039;t want her in their face. <br /><br />Speaking of her being in peoples faces.<br /><br />She is an intensely loving dog as soon as you step through that door. With new people, with her parents owner, anyone really, but no one more than my partner. She jumps up as high as she can, going past his waist every time. Mouth open and panting, desperate for belly rubs, giving kisses and rolling under your feet all at once. I like having my own space and I know my partner doesn&#039;t mind but he&#039;s still not ready for that when he comes in. Especially since he&#039;s constant nightshift. <br /><br />I love affectionate animals, I really do. There&#039;s just something about her demanding it off either one of us that I don&#039;t like. When she really wants to play or really wants attention, I understand, but some of the ways she initiates that immediately irritates me. Beyond my initial want to be around animals, she is an obligation, so I need to be around her when my partner is at work or out. Even when I go to bed after she has had company most of the day she will make these croaky howling noises that she never makes at any other time. I know what they mean, Again, I&#039;m just explaining. When I&#039;m feeling down or frustrated, I need to be on my own to figure out what&#039;s going on in my head. It&#039;s not something that I can ignore. And when I&#039;m in those moods I have to see them through. At those times it seems like her behaviour comes through an entirely different filter and where I&#039;d usually find her behaviour funny or cute I immediately hate that she&#039;s trying to get attention. Even though I know she doesnt understand. I don&#039;t fully understand that.<br /><br />When it comes to telling her off, she almost always listens to me because I&#039;m consistent. My partner, is not. And him telling her off usually has my voice overriding...<br /> <br /> <a href="https://www.psychforums.com/blog/Mental Health/i_don%CA%B9t_think_i_should_own_a_dog._c-4_u-464139_b-12723.html" class="postlink-local">[ Continued ]</a></div>');
		
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